Daily Snapshots – Day #10

“What other people think of you is none of your business.” – Regina Brett

I am grateful for ‚Ķ being at a spot in my life where I feel comfortable in my own skin most of the time. There’s been many years where I didn’t feel this way and change is inevitable (so there will come a time where I again don’t feel comfortable or I’m evolving), so I’m just savouring my current happiness and comfortableness.

(p.s. Spellcheck has deemed comfortableness a real word! I wasn’t sure…) ūüėČ

I am hopeful that… I have more love for those I have disliked in the past and challenge myself to … think of people I have had tensions with (in the past or recently), send them positive wishes (in thought or in e-mail/person) and lift them up in prayer.

I enjoyed ‚Ķ analyzing our unusually large Oct-Nov. Visa bill last night (because I’m a nerd like that). Lots of seasonal & maintenance-related payments in there – but I’m feeling blessed to have received all of those goods & services.

Yesterday‚Äôs Challenge: I am hopeful that‚Ķ¬†I remember what it feels like to begrudgingly go to school/daycare because I had to, eat the food not because I wanted to, but because it‚Äôs on the table; and¬†follow rules that I didn‚Äôt understand¬†and challenge myself to ‚Ķ continue to explain the rationale for everything and avoid ‚Äúbecause I said so‚ÄĚ statements, set my girls and family up for success by being planful where I can be (e.g. sleeping more and getting an earlier start to the day so it‚Äôs not so rushed), and having patience & understanding¬†when there‚Äôs tantrums/tiredness.

Update on Yesterday‚Äôs Challenge: Yesterday was a busy work day. Combined with a trip to the library (where C screamed because she wanted to crawl around when we were getting ready to leave…and because she wanted to eat paper), J having a tantrum because she wanted to watch a show (I said no, explaining we didn’t need a show, we just got to go to the library), and me trying to send a quick e-mail which ideally would’ve been sent 2 hrs earlier (whilst C banged on the keyboard and J was yelling “I want to watch a show!!!!”). So mommy lost her patience and yelled “CAN I PLEASE JUST SEND THIS!!!” (which of course broke C into tears, and J was already crying over my refusal of a show).

After we had a few minutes to calm down, I approached J in her hiding/play spot, under the dining room table, gave her a hug. I asked her if her spot under the dining room was a house and we played there before and after dinner – pretending there was a fire-breathing dragon outside (naturally). Our dining room tablecloth is way too long and hangs down to the floor…which isn’t great aesthetically, but makes for a pretty sweet fort!

 

Daily Snapshots – Day #9

“You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.” – Wayne Gretzky

I am grateful for ‚Ķ freedom, specifically the freedom that comes with (1) living in Canada and (2) being an adult. The freedom to walk wherever I please and talk to whomever I want. The freedom to vote. The freedom to wear whatever clothing I want.¬†The freedom to buy things as I choose and eat cake for breakfast if I so wish. The freedom to educate myself in whatever subject I choose and create a career that I can be passionate about. We all have that freedom but sometimes convince ourselves we don’t (whether it’s because of societal pressures, financial pressures, fear of change, etc.).

Sometimes I think about the life of my daughters and how at their age the idea of having control¬†and making their own choices is¬†so amazingly freeing to them (and we give it to them when we can, where it’s appropriate). Clearly I’ve racked up a few more years of experience so have a bit more knowledge and discipline to make good decisions (usually). I suppose that’s why my job now is to teach them how to make good decisions and understand consequences so when they’re older they can enjoy the same freedoms and limit the instances of crippling consequences.

I am hopeful that‚Ķ¬†I remember what it feels like to begrudgingly go to school/daycare because I had to, eat the food not because I wanted to, but because it’s on the table; and¬†follow rules that I didn’t understand¬†and challenge myself to ‚Ķ continue to explain the rationale for everything and avoid “because I said so” statements, set my girls and family up for success by being planful where I can be (e.g. sleeping more and getting an earlier start to the day so it’s not so rushed), and having patience & understanding¬†when there’s tantrums/tiredness.

I enjoyed … remembering how lovely it was when I was pregnant and had a little peanut growing inside of me. A buddy that went everywhere with me, that moved inside my belly and that was the greatest gift to anticipate receiving. The pregnancy symptoms were not so great, but the miracle of life was pretty awesome.

Yesterday’s Challenge: I am hopeful that… while I’m out-of-town later this week that things go smoothly for H and that the girls enjoy their time with dad and challenge myself to … play a bit extra these next few days, focus & learn lots at the conference and enjoy visits with close friends.

Update on Yesterday‚Äôs Challenge: I’m soaking in lots of extra giggles and kisses and also trying to make the most of my visit and booking dates with multiple old friends.

Daily Snapshots – Day #4

I am grateful for … having my car back (after a few days in for repairs), a father-in-law that can help fix the car for a more-than-reasonable cost, songs on the radio that conjure up memories and allow you to briefly relive a certain period of time or experience in your life (any Jason Mraz song reminds me of our trip to Hawaii), and a job that incorporates worship (through monthly mass) Рwhich is, very interestingly, something I was wishfully hoping & praying for.

I am hopeful that‚Ķ¬†my daughters don’t feel the pressures of the morning rush/evening rush that their parents feel (or perhaps just the minimum amount that encourages them to get their bums in gear ;))¬†and challenge myself to ‚Ķ incorporate at least 5 minutes of snuggle/talk time in the morning with them that is not “task-focused” (i.e. please put on your shirt, please come here so i can put up your hair, etc.).

I enjoyed ‚Ķ watching C practice new words like “Diaper”, her name, bottle… and seeing her determined personality come out day-by-day.

Yesterday‚Äôs Challenge: I am hopeful that‚Ķ¬†I can¬†be¬†reduce my lunch and coffee take-out purchases¬†and challenge myself to ‚Ķ limit lunch take-out to twice a week and reflect on why I prefer to eat take-out when I‚Äôve already packed a lunch‚Ķis it to give myself a purpose/excuse to walk outside? Is¬†the food¬†a ‚Äúreward‚ÄĚ to quell the stress of a new job? Is it because it‚Äôs just so delicious‚Ķor so ‚Äúreasonably priced‚ÄĚ?

Update on Yesterday’s Challenge: I did choose to drive past the Tim Horton’s this morning and not pick up a coffee today, despite thinking it might give me an energy boost (I’m sure it’s 90% a mental thing). Regarding the challenge to sleep more, I did not turn the computer on last night and went to bed about 1 hr earlier.